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Mivvi
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I’m not diagnosed with BPD and to be honest I’d never really heard of it until just a few days ago.
I have been struggling all my life with issues surrounding aggressive vocal outbursts,mood swings,trust in all relationships but especially my romantic relationships.
I have just very recently separated from my wife of 16 years.
We have 3 kids.
This last year has been awful.
I can’t go into all of the details as it would take pages.
But we finally separated because she just couldn’t handle my ups and downs and me kicking off for no apparent reason.
I have been struggling with the separation and this is why I went looking for an answer as to why I behave irrationally.
This is how I came across BPD.
I fit with 99% of the symptoms
Im looking for some advice on how to control my racing mind,I can’t get off thinking there is someone else involved,feel totally abandoned and this morning I’m having a full on episode heart racing,shaking out of control.
I‘m worried about the future
and how I’m going to cope being back on my own,especially once I have my own place and the kids are coming and going.
Has anyone been through this scenario that can shed some light on coping.
I have to admit I’m scared.
I have been struggling all my life with issues surrounding aggressive vocal outbursts,mood swings,trust in all relationships but especially my romantic relationships.
I have just very recently separated from my wife of 16 years.
We have 3 kids.
This last year has been awful.
I can’t go into all of the details as it would take pages.
But we finally separated because she just couldn’t handle my ups and downs and me kicking off for no apparent reason.
I have been struggling with the separation and this is why I went looking for an answer as to why I behave irrationally.
This is how I came across BPD.
I fit with 99% of the symptoms
Im looking for some advice on how to control my racing mind,I can’t get off thinking there is someone else involved,feel totally abandoned and this morning I’m having a full on episode heart racing,shaking out of control.
I‘m worried about the future
and how I’m going to cope being back on my own,especially once I have my own place and the kids are coming and going.
Has anyone been through this scenario that can shed some light on coping.
I have to admit I’m scared.