- Nov 29, 2009
I'm a 21 yr old female (just turned 21). Im not suicidal but I often have horrible thoughts of dying. Sometimes all of the time but most of the time just before I go to sleep or when Im alone. I've did a little research and so far it sounds like anxiety. At the beginning of this year a guy I was dating passed away from a drug over dose and Ive thought maybe it could have something to do with that. It was a very tramatic experience for me because I was the one that found him dead in his apt. I've never actually had a panic attack, I dont think, but when I start thinking about dying I start having trouble breathing and I feel like my heart starts racing. I dont think I'm depressed, I've accepted what happened with my ex and I have moved on with my life. I'm very happy with my life now. Met a nice guy, moved to another state, living the happy life I've always wanted so I've ruled out depression. I just need a little insight from personal experiences... Thank you...