• Hi. It’s great to see you. Welcome!

    Our forum members are people, maybe like yourself, who experience mental health difficulties or who have had them at some point in their life. Amongst our membership there is a wealth of expertise that has been developed through having to deal with mental health issues.

    We are an actively moderated forum with a team of experienced moderators. We also have a specialist safety team that works extra hard to keep the forum safe for visitors and members.

    Register now to access many more features and forums!

Confused, very very confused.

A

aya

Member
Joined
Dec 6, 2019
Messages
6
Location
AZ
hello, so this is my first post on here and it feels quite odd (sorry for the weird title by the way, I had no other way to put it). I was diagnosed with borderline almost 3 years ago now, although at the time I was deemed too young to be showing these symptoms at all. I was in therapy for a little over a year for depression, ednos, and severe anxiety but that was a while ago and my family believe I'm better. I just, feel really confused about it all? this past year has been one of the worst even though I've supposedly 'recovered', my emotions are intense and daunting, my self image changes so often it feels like my own thoughts are lies, and I can't trust myself or anyone else which affects every single relationship in my life, whether it be familial or otherwise. I've spoken about it too my sister (basically had a very embarrassing breakdown about it while I was at it) I explained the blinding anger, and unexplained mood swings, my frequent relapses in self harm, unstable friendships and the way I perceive emotions and the exhausting feeling of emptiness as well. I'm not sure if my borderline diagnosis is even still valid, and I keep feeling like a complete fraud, like I'm a liar to not only myself but everyone around me. my sister said this is normal, and I shouldn't seek treatment again because that's just how girls are in their late teens, which makes me even more confused. honestly, I just want a second opinion just to know whether I'm being dramatic or should let it g? if that makes sense? anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this.
 
E

EstherRose94

Well-known member
Joined
Mar 2, 2019
Messages
2,581
Location
USA
You’re not a fraud and you have every right to seek treatment if you feel it’d help you ❤
 
G

Girl interupted

Well-known member
Joined
Nov 17, 2018
Messages
1,641
Everything you are feeling is “normal” and a therapist can help you untangle the mess of emotions.

its good you recognize already that you can’t always trust your brain. It’s a sucky part of bpd but can be controlled over time and with help.

Look for a good therapist, focus on you because only you can tell if you’ve recovered or not.
 
A

aya

Member
Joined
Dec 6, 2019
Messages
6
Location
AZ
You’re not a fraud and you have every right to seek treatment if you feel it’d help you ❤
thank you so much for this! sometimes it really helps just to feel validated and I can't thank you enough for taking the time and effort to do so.
 
A

aya

Member
Joined
Dec 6, 2019
Messages
6
Location
AZ
Everything you are feeling is “normal” and a therapist can help you untangle the mess of emotions.

its good you recognize already that you can’t always trust your brain. It’s a sucky part of bpd but can be controlled over time and with help.

Look for a good therapist, focus on you because only you can tell if you’ve recovered or not.
thanks for the advice, I'll definitely keep it in mind. thank you so much for taking the time to reply btw, I really appreciate it.
 
SwanLake

SwanLake

Well-known member
Joined
May 20, 2019
Messages
1,169
hello, so this is my first post on here and it feels quite odd (sorry for the weird title by the way, I had no other way to put it). I was diagnosed with borderline almost 3 years ago now, although at the time I was deemed too young to be showing these symptoms at all. I was in therapy for a little over a year for depression, ednos, and severe anxiety but that was a while ago and my family believe I'm better. I just, feel really confused about it all? this past year has been one of the worst even though I've supposedly 'recovered', my emotions are intense and daunting, my self image changes so often it feels like my own thoughts are lies, and I can't trust myself or anyone else which affects every single relationship in my life, whether it be familial or otherwise. I've spoken about it too my sister (basically had a very embarrassing breakdown about it while I was at it) I explained the blinding anger, and unexplained mood swings, my frequent relapses in self harm, unstable friendships and the way I perceive emotions and the exhausting feeling of emptiness as well. I'm not sure if my borderline diagnosis is even still valid, and I keep feeling like a complete fraud, like I'm a liar to not only myself but everyone around me. my sister said this is normal, and I shouldn't seek treatment again because that's just how girls are in their late teens, which makes me even more confused. honestly, I just want a second opinion just to know whether I'm being dramatic or should let it g? if that makes sense? anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this.
If your emotions are still intense it’s quite possible you are still struggling with your BPD. Personally I’ve found no matter how much you recover you must make the effort to stay mindful every single day, else the symptoms can rapidly return. Don’t be embarrassed to ask for help if you need it. 🤗
 
A

aya

Member
Joined
Dec 6, 2019
Messages
6
Location
AZ
If your emotions are still intense it’s quite possible you are still struggling with your BPD. Personally I’ve found no matter how much you recover you must make the effort to stay mindful every single day, else the symptoms can rapidly return. Don’t be embarrassed to ask for help if you need it. 🤗
that's so true, at the start of recovery it can feel like a good future is just one without your mental illness at all, except the more you go along the more you realize it's not something you can simply rid yourself completely of and forget all about. Thanks for the reply by the way, I appreciate it :D
 
Top