- Dec 6, 2019
hello, so this is my first post on here and it feels quite odd (sorry for the weird title by the way, I had no other way to put it). I was diagnosed with borderline almost 3 years ago now, although at the time I was deemed too young to be showing these symptoms at all. I was in therapy for a little over a year for depression, ednos, and severe anxiety but that was a while ago and my family believe I'm better. I just, feel really confused about it all? this past year has been one of the worst even though I've supposedly 'recovered', my emotions are intense and daunting, my self image changes so often it feels like my own thoughts are lies, and I can't trust myself or anyone else which affects every single relationship in my life, whether it be familial or otherwise. I've spoken about it too my sister (basically had a very embarrassing breakdown about it while I was at it) I explained the blinding anger, and unexplained mood swings, my frequent relapses in self harm, unstable friendships and the way I perceive emotions and the exhausting feeling of emptiness as well. I'm not sure if my borderline diagnosis is even still valid, and I keep feeling like a complete fraud, like I'm a liar to not only myself but everyone around me. my sister said this is normal, and I shouldn't seek treatment again because that's just how girls are in their late teens, which makes me even more confused. honestly, I just want a second opinion just to know whether I'm being dramatic or should let it g? if that makes sense? anyways, thanks for taking the time to read this.