Coming Down?

[Stripey]

Used to post on here a lot, sometimes dip in and have a read of what's going on.

Anyway, just thought i'd post tonight. Have been doing okay of late, but feel myself slipping down. My bad days/times, seem to be lasting longer and becoming more frequent.

I just feel so overwhelemed by the day to day things of life. I live with my boyfriend, and really basic things like keeping on top of housework getting up in the morning even planning to go and meet people I like and do things i like, just seem to totally overwhelm me.

But i kinda feel like i'm just making excuses. I have been through the whole therapy thing, and come out of the other side, this is the bit where i get back on with my life. But if i'm honest, i just don't care enough. I have almost permanent suicidal thoughts that lurk in the back of my head.

The thing is, i do feel like - as things have been going so well and i have so much to be grateful for, if i still cant get back on track then I should just bite the bullet and end things for myself.

I've got one friend i can talk to about this stuff, but to be honest we've both been down this path so many times that i think talking to him would just make us both feel worse. I've got a psychologist who's great but i've again had the same conversation so many times with her...

Just needed to write things down in a place where others understand.

Stripey

 

[Twylight]

Welcome back stripey

Trying to live in the community is immensely difficult

I tend to let things build up and then sort them all at once

 

[Stripey]

Hi Twylight

Thanks for your reply. I know what you mean about letting things build up, its a habit i've tried to get out of but i know i'm still doing it.

Thanks for your response
Stripey