I'm totally the same.When im on a high i wish i was famous i listen to my ipod and imagine im the one on stage. I listen to Alicia Keys and imagine i have her talent of playing the piano ect. i get such a buzz from music. but mostly i dream of being a really important dr like a surgeon being able to help ppl and change there lifes and have that element of respect u get from having such an amazing profession. I think i just want to be someone important u know. i get the buzz and start looking on the internet at scrubs and all the little gadgets i would buy and see how i become a dr even though i could never be intelligent enough.
I used to bake in large l quantities when I was manic and have ideas for dozens of business, only a few of which were realized. None have been followed through on. I would get splashy and loud with my makeup and use acrylic nails that I would focus lots of time on keeping up. SometimesWell they say this is the good thing about bipolar so let's hear it; what's your best creative side?
Does anyone find they seem a bit stuck on this, maybe because they havent done any music lessons, paint classes etc, do you feel a bit 'stuck' but know the creativity is there somewhere? x
It's hard to do well when pressure and anxiety come into play. It tangles your thoughts then boom, brain fried, panicking I panic for no reason, I have panic disorder and it's hard to cope when medication can't even control it. Sometimes I'd just rather be in a coma.I'm a singer, but I find it really difficult to get motivated to practice and perform when I'm low. When I'm high I just want to perform constantly. It's the same with writing. Some days I could write forever, but other days just thinking about facing it sends me into a panic.
I feel you! I have panic disorder too so sometimes everything just feels too much.It's hard to do well when pressure and anxiety come into play. It tangles your thoughts then boom, brain fried, panicking I panic for no reason, I have panic disorder and it's hard to cope when medication can't even control it. Sometimes I'd just rather be in a coma.