Fluffymum, I hate to say this but I do not credit the bi polar tendency with my creativity. The bi polar enhances the creativity but isn't the source. That being said, I have always done photography, gardening and writing. I wrote a little book about my experiences with the mental health system. It's called Little Porcupine Goes to the Psyche Ward. You can google it. This is a high level of creativity for me. It was my self therapy. I also had a photograph accepted into a Museum of Art one time. I was on depakote at the time so one could not say that the creativity in photography was coming from the mood disorder. A mood disorder can only enhance what is already there. Or exaggerate it. Well, that's how I look at it.
Bipolar to me is a fuckin curse
Which just keeps getting worse and worse
The ups the downs the laughs the frowns
Sitting in ward 2 wae a bunch off clowns
I know that's not nice but cmon ti fuck
I'm bound to be due some fuckin good luck
I mustav bn bad in a previous life
For am cursed wae this for the rest of my life
I wanted to leave I wanted to die,
I sat and watched the world go by,
The end was in sight didn't know how that would be,
I just knew I was weak and wanted to be free,
Bipolar twists ur world around
From being as high as the ceiling
To being as low as the ground.
The people I would leave I know would be sad,
And that in my heart made me selfish and bad
I decided against it and and seeked out some advice
And with help and understanding that made me feel nice
I arrived at a place I was timid and shy
All these other people here I didn't know why
All I knew it was busy and slow
I knew it would help and the right place to go
I grew up sketching and doodling all my life. I never stopped. I did it before I can remember. I always knew I was a bit different anyway. I became obsessed with perfection dropped out of art school and burnt my portfolio.
Abused alcohol and drugs for 12 years and never picked up my pens again. Womanized, was the life and soul of every party, started my own business, married, had two kids - divorced ... He'll honestly I could write a book on what I did.
About 6 months ago I let it all go
I started art again after 12 years. And I ve not stopped
Read all I could on bi polar, touched other souls and now know what it is we 'have'
I will tell you what we have... A f*cking bullsh*t medical term boxed design to make us feel as if we are freaks. It's like X Men - the mutants
We are the greatest of the greatest.
Look at history, Churchill, Stephen Fry, Einstein. They had what we have.
It's called brilliance
They call it delusional
Get the hell off the crap the prescribe you
Accept who you are and literally Let Go
Watch Fight Club
Learn what's behind that message
Study other cultures and realize North American indians promote those with our gift to shamans and healers
You will experience massive highs... Use them
I produce incredible brilliant art work now that is selling and soothing my soul
The low periods? Don't ever call them lows...
It's when we sharpen the knife
The self critical hammering... It's refinement
If you believe what western doctors and society tells you
You won't get out of bed
Let go and listen to music that rocks your whole being...
For we have a soul and a light that is ancient and brighter than those that say we need ''help'
We don't need help - we need to come together and celebrate our unique souls that have travelled through all time and space
And for crying out loud! Let go and just let the brush spill over the canvas
You'll be amazed
I'm an amateur self-taught painter. I had always felt drawn to painting and I always loved painting my house and rooms and designs. But, it wasn't until recently that I got in to oil painting on canvas. I absolutely love it. When I paint I feel so free; there are no rules. I talk to myself aloud whilst painting, too. It's sort-of like my inner artist voice that encourages me while I'm painting. I really enjoy it and have been told I have a natural talent for it. I think so, too.