- Aug 16, 2014
A couple of years ago my eating disorder was really bad. Since I met my partner I have been much happier and more stable, and my eating has improved. I got to a weight which I felt okay about. I still had thoughts about being too big but as long as I did not go above this weight I was okay. However, recently my clothes have been feeling tight and I decided to weigh myself, which I haven't done for ages. My weight has gone above what is acceptable to me and I feel so distressed and panicky about it. I don't know what to do. Whenever I express my anxieties about being fat to my partner he just says 'you're not fat' but I don't believe him. I've started restricting my food a little bit again. Not as much as before, but I feel the need to do it. And I'm trying to exercise more. I feel so stuck and scared because I don't want my eating disorder to get out of control again but I also don't want to be this weight. This is just on my mind constantly at the moment and it's making me want to die.