- Mar 19, 2019
You're doing a great deal of emotional work right now, Lunus. There are going to be more exercises like the timeline that will send you back to dark places. Rather than feel you are 'failing' if you crave the support of a cigarette - perhaps give yourself permission beforehand to smoke a limited amount. You can move forward with your no smoking resolution with the caveat that you will permit yourself no more than 5 in an emotional emergency.Smoked my last six cigarettes. I feel like I’m now ready to stop smoking completely. Time will tell.
I'm not trying to discourage you - I just think that there will be some demanding and turbulent times ahead with therapy and your self-esteem doesn't need to be eroded by feeling you have 'failed' if you need a cigarette. If you plan ahead and permit yourself an emergency quota, you will be meeting your own, kinder expectations.
If you can picture a line graph (or even draw one) of your smoking - all you should worry about is that the line is moving on an overall decline. I think in terms of weeks rather than days. If you habitually smoke 20 a day, then any week when you have smoked less than 140 cigarettes is a WIN and an improvement. If you beat yourself up for a relapse and smoking eight cigarettes on one particularly bad day - you are robbing yourself of the achievement of not smoking the usual 132....sometimes, all or nothing thinking just inhibits our progress.
Wishing you luck and sending lots of love your way xxxx