Chronic feeling crap, depression or something else?

[ThrownOutTheAsylum]

I'm 61 and for years I've felt crap, a bit like having a cold every day. Doing anything is a struggle as I just want to curl up in a corner and vegetate. It's more mental than physical, as I can jog for over 20 minutes every day. I have central sleep apnoea and restless leg syndrome, but treatment with VPAP/CPAP and standard RLS/PLMS treatments such as Ropinrole & Lyrica has had little improvement.

Looking back, this has gradually become worse since I was 18, over 40 years ago.

I've always felt vulnerable and not right, sometimes suffering from depression, but have held down 2 separate demanding professional careers until things got too much for me a few years ago.

I feel crap every day and this sometimes leads me to feeling depressed, but I'm confident that if I felt alright then I wouldn't be depressed. I'm in no danger of suicide, but life is such a joyless struggle.

I've had all sorts of blood tests done with some marginal results, but nothing that goes anywhere.

Does this strike a chord with anyone?

 

[bpd2020]

I have mental illness but nothing physical. I find that alone very tough to deal with. I can only imagine how much harder it is to have physical things going on too. If you have tried antidepressants and therapy then you may want to talk to your GP about treatment resistant depression. I personally have found a combination of medication and lots of therapy to be helpful but I still struggle.

 

[ThrownOutTheAsylum]

Thank you. I have tried several antidepressants, but they make no difference. I take Modafinil, which is a life saver.