- Sep 17, 2021
Hi everyone. I don’t know if anyone will read this but I figured I’d vent anyway. I’m about ready to give up. Taking my own life is all I think about, and part of me can’t wait to do it. All my pain will end. Im depressed for many reasons. One are my looks. I don’t think I’m ugly but I have been teased for the way I look since elementary school. I have a long face and a huge and oddly shaped head. The teasing has gotten to me and I barely go out or talk to women. Im talk and muscular but that doesn’t make me feel better. There’s honestly no point in living this life looking the way I do. I avoid talking to people and I have zero friends because I’m scared of being made fun of. I didn’t fucking ask to be born like this but oh well, I guess. All I want to do is look normal but I couldn’t even fucking have that. Another reason I’m suicidal is because my brother died last year. I don’t want to live another 50-60 years without him. Ultimately I’m ready to die. This life is cruel and I’m sick of waking up everyday just to feel like shit. It’s honestly either take my life now or kill myself in a few years. Im in my twenties now and I know I won’t see forty. I wish I was never born. And I’m not here so people can suggest getting help. Therapy won’t make me look any more normal. It won’t stop people from saying I look like a cartoon character. Why did I have to be born like this? Chronic depression and weird features. Don’t tell me to accept them, I’m honestly here just to vent. I hope I die by the end of the year.