- Apr 9, 2010
Family can be a trigger for me as many people especially this time of year.
I dont have any contact with my siblings but contact with mother whom i dont get any joy or pleasure out of at all. I have always been the one who makes the effort. Every christmas its like she spends time with her sons but never tells me or asks what are we up too nothing at all.
Every xmas day i get wound up yell at hubby/get agitated/get drunk just sends me right off. Pre xmas i hadnt seen my mother for three weeks and havnt seen her since
She never even said merry xmas or anything. I text her early xmas morning didnt get a reply til the evening.
Anyway I am feeling really good, not seeing her usually i feel guilty and out of that i normally feel i have to see her etc. I feel much better not seeing her.
Dont know what too make of it really sad that the less contact the better i feel.
Maybe i am just down right selfish?