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Things have been pretty calm and steady in my household the last couple of months. Its made Christmas a little exciting for me this year. Last Christmas was just plain awful with partner in the ward and my anxiety and stress levels through the roof and not forgetting lack of sleep due my lovely baby,, who is sleeping all night now so thats a massive help!! I just hope everyone out there has a lovely Christmas and not on there own. Just remember there's always somewhere to go.. You just have to search,, there's no reason why you should be on your own at this special time of year. Much love everyone ❀
 
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thank you, made me feel brighter after a bad few days, where words that have been spoken can't be unsaid. It looks like I will be alone on Christmas day. Maybe I'll try the sally ann.
 
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xmas i'm trying to avoid, remember one xmas day standing in the kitchen contemplating suicide, thinking bittter thoughts about no one caring then i thought it'd suit them fine if i did and if i survived i'd have suicide scars to explain to the gentle sex on top of schitzoprenia

remember xmas in the workhouse or rather don't as i was having shock treatment. maybe shock treatment is the best way to handle xmas

Looking on the bright side i've got a party tonight and this women phoned up, maybe i've got a date if i had the social skills to know, probably get pissed as the only way to handle social anxiety and blow it
 
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i'm sorry to hear you are feeling this way ramboghettouk (loving your name btw!!) just relax and enjoy your night if you can,,, if you get pissed then so be it..... but trust me there will be someone out there for you x
 
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there is something omho faintly rediculous about this forum censoring certain things on the grounds it'll give people ideas about suicide, particularly as the mainstream media doesn't
 
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maybe it is because i don't have a history of carrying out suicide attampts i feel like that, as i said to one psychiatrist i'd only end up here if i did try, anyway at my age i'll be dead soon enough, particularly considering life expectancys
 
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Last Christmas was not good. Mid-December a friend wigged out. He found out later on his roommate was slipping meth into his food, which is why he wigged out. He was an internet friend, but I guess he'd forgotten how much personal information I had about him that was verified. He told me he planned on committing a violent crime, he told me a lot of his plans. For a week I wrestled with whether I was going to go to the cops and betray my friend and try to prevent it from happening or not to say a word and not betray my friend and let it happen. For nearly two months I cried daily, trying to live with the implications of my decision.

I'm dead broke this Christmas, we're probably not even going to be able to get a tree, but somehow it seems far better than last Christmas already.
 
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maybe it is because i don't have a history of carrying out suicide attampts i feel like that, as i said to one psychiatrist i'd only end up here if i did try, anyway at my age i'll be dead soon enough, particularly considering life expectancys
hang in there Rambo, new treatments are on their way :hug:
 
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on a lighter note, when my kids were little they used to call him Farmer Chrimmas, and to this day I cant see a picture of him without thinking that. :D
 
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what new treatments, rethink wanted me to go on ability i said i can remember when depixol was the latest wonder drug and we were all going to lead normal lives on that

i remember the start of care in the community under thatcher in the 80s, i was in a hostel as one friend put it we were all going to lead notmal lives looked after by the neighbours, they were extreme in their view i could work on drugs etc when i argued it was a symptom to be treated

Came to london were i had some very extreme reality therapy, heard different story, now i wish i'd never come but stuck here, have more contacts than in brum
 
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what new treatments, rethink wanted me to go on ability i said i can remember when depixol was the latest wonder drug and we were all going to lead normal lives on that

i remember the start of care in the community under thatcher in the 80s, i was in a hostel as one friend put it we were all going to lead notmal lives looked after by the neighbours, they were extreme in their view i could work on drugs etc when i argued it was a symptom to be treated

Came to london were i had some very extreme reality therapy, heard different story, now i wish i'd never come but stuck here, have more contacts than in brum
there is loads of stuff going on, schizophrenia is basically being viewed as something that needs to be eliminated like leprosy or scurvy.

downunder they have found a correlation between schizophrenia and vitamin d, much like folate and spina bifida

some really exciting research is going on.

remember when AIDs first broke out, it was a Certain Death Sentence, now a lot of folk live HIV positive and never even develop to AIDS.

research is heavy and ongoing. It wont happen overnight but it is happening trust me. x
 
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there is loads of stuff going on, schizophrenia is basically being viewed as something that needs to be eliminated like leprosy or scurvy.

downunder they have found a correlation between schizophrenia and vitamin d, much like folate and spina bifida

some really exciting research is going on.

remember when AIDs first broke out, it was a Certain Death Sentence, now a lot of folk live HIV positive and never even develop to AIDS.

research is heavy and ongoing. It wont happen overnight but it is happening trust me. x
even assuming they can treat the illlness, and in my time they've claimed that with me, can they treat the stigma label
 
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there is loads of stuff going on, schizophrenia is basically being viewed as something that needs to be eliminated like leprosy or scurvy.

downunder they have found a correlation between schizophrenia and vitamin d, much like folate and spina bifida

some really exciting research is going on.

remember when AIDs first broke out, it was a Certain Death Sentence, now a lot of folk live HIV positive and never even develop to AIDS.

research is heavy and ongoing. It wont happen overnight but it is happening trust me. x
HIV & AIDS were cured ages ago by gypsy tears.
 
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even assuming they can treat the illlness, and in my time they've claimed that with me, can they treat the stigma label
there used to be massive stigma attached to leprosy, to the point they hung a bell around the sufferers necks. :(

Pretty much the one thing i think we're all in agreement with is, Mental Health Treatments have to change, and with the Accerlation of Technology, once this begins it will probably roar forward.

I knew a girl who lost a baby to SIDS, it used to be a real severe problem where i lived, rarely a year passed you didn't hear of some poor family who lost a baby.

Then they taught mums to put baby down on their side not their tummies (we used to actually get taught this!) and now no one knows a mum who lost a baby to SIDS.

Within my adulthood its gone from Common to Almost Never. In front of my eyes.
 
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there are plenty of people who don't accept schitzoprenia is a genetic biochemical illlness controlled by chemicals, theres plenty on this web site what i know is in the 80s 90s when they were mapping the genome it was widely predicted that the gene for this genetic illness would be found, never happened

as i said i've experienced been deemed cured among other things, when i called the victim support as i had said i was schitzoprenic the women turned up with a cpn, i heard them in the car park,as they left, the women was saying my flat smelt and someone should hear about this the cpn said they said he wasn't schitzoprenic and it's caught up with them
 
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there are plenty of people who don't accept schitzoprenia is a genetic biochemical illlness controlled by chemicals, theres plenty on this web site what i know is in the 80s 90s when they were mapping the genome it was widely predicted that the gene for this genetic illness would be found, never happened

as i said i've experienced been deemed cured among other things, when i called the victim support as i had said i was schitzoprenic the women turned up with a cpn, i heard them in the car park,as they left, the women was saying my flat smelt and someone should hear about this the cpn said they said he wasn't schitzoprenic and it's caught up with them
cutting edge research is indicating a lack of vitamin d during development in the womb

much like lack of folate resulted in spina bifida.

Now, they give pregnant mums folate = no spina bifida.

also, a lot of babies used to die at birth before they discovered it was Vitamin K, began giving shots as routine, the babies stopped dying.

Imagine if its That Simple. :(
 
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cutting edge research is indicating a lack of vitamin d during development in the womb

much like lack of folate resulted in spina bifida.

Now, they give pregnant mums folate = no spina bifida.

also, a lot of babies used to die at birth before they discovered it was Vitamin K, began giving shots as routine, the babies stopped dying.

Imagine if its That Simple. :(
but it probably isn;t that simple theories have come and gone, as new scientist said the current half life of genetic theories on personality is 6 months, half of theories are disproved every 6 months

anyway at my age having had the illness so long i have no wish to get better and have my benefits cut, as my brother said when you get to 50 employers don't consider you worth training for a new job
 
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