Childhood abuse / incest

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Dedus

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I am not sure if its appropriate to post this here, I couldn't find a specific forum for this subject , but I wanted to highlight or at least cast some light on this appalling subject of abuse/incest, some may find the content disturbing, and therefore I would urge you not to continue reading this ( contains harrowing content ) I am writing this because it's what shaped my life and made me the outcast I am today !,

Aged 5 my mum left my dad for another guy, my dad was devastated , I had 5 siblings , a baby sister and 4 brothers , my dad struggled to cope with us all and the heartbreak, he advertised for a house keeper , and shortly after a she devil was to become our step mother, she singled me out I know not why, beat and abused me, kept me chained to a dog kennel, when my dad was at work, aged 9 I gotmsent to live with my relatives, aunts was an abusive alcoholic , grandad was a pheadofile , for the next 5 years I was Beaton and raped by both, kept in a coal,cellar, and abused in every way, aged 14 I was taken into,care by the social services , where I was again abused by those in a position of trust, I ran away when I was 16, and lived on the streets , all through out this I self harmed, tried suwicide, got addicted to Meds and alcohol, I was on self destruct, how I am still alive I know not,
It is not my intention to shock anyone or offend anyone with this, I just wanted to highlight abuse is shocking and should be highlighted , !!
 
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Yes it certainly should be, any forms.
 
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He Dedus and thankyou for having the courage to share your experience, I think you may find the PTSD forum is the place to post and you can start a Journal for triggering things as well as it doesn't show up on the side feed and people have to go to your journal to read it. I'm a childhood abuse survivor/incest survivor as well with chronic PTSD and we have others here too that can relate to you. I'm so sorry you had to endure such evil in your childhood. I hope we can help you cope, support you, and find you some good friends you don't have to be afraid to share with. Welcome to the forum:welcome:
 
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I am sorry you too had to endure the horrors I mention here, it's a cruel world, and their are monsters in every corner , but also Angels with big hearts, Ty for the advice, x
 
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Hello Dedus,
Welcome to the forum and it was brave of you to share your story. it must have been have been difficult to write it down. Survivor also myself.
Are you in better times now and is there anything we can do to help support you?
Safe hugs to you if that is ok?
Are you getting any support or part of any survivors groups at all?
Best wishes to you
Taffy xxx:)
 
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Hey SURVIVORS WE ALL ARE

I was raped and abused by my own father and his bretheren which also included women - shcoked I cannot be shaken to the core I am fooking hard you know. The filmed it all for their dirty bastard pleasure- I appeared as a child porn SNUFF yes snuff star, they offered my sex crazed body to their god every time. It hurts really badly, I have only been talking about it for four weeks its fooked me well n truly over up and out. I am aggled for the brain n body are weak dirty festering flesh. Please take me now for I have sought absolution and recieved it today so I am free to go Self determined - I wish to go now Imapteincently
 
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I emphythise with your suffering.
 
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Dedus

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Hi
I am under my 7th shrink, still waiting on theraphy, there is a shortage where I live , the Dr,s and shrinks have had me on Meds since I was 14, currently I am on 140 pills a week, ( not good) it's not a life, it's an existence , I've tried coming off Meds, but I can't cope with people and life in general, death is always at the back of my mind. , Ty very much for the advice and offer of support, ( it matters ) :)
 
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Taffy

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Hi there Dedus, that's a hell of a lot of meds.:eek:

It took me a very long time to talk about stuff. i can relate to how you feel also.

Here are some very good people that you might want to speak to .....you can ring them or email them ( if you email it will take a while for them to reply as it is bank holiday.

They are the ones dealing with a lot of the historical abuse stuff. they are excellent and do not judge at all and understand the issues.
They can also try and direct you to a therapist who actually has proper training in the area.
Here is their website

NAPAC | Supporting Recovery from Childhood Abuse

It is just an existence I agree, this was not your fault, I know you must go over and over it and wonder why. These people were wicked and evil, and nothing was your fault.

You are not on your own, there are a lot of people here who have suffered also.
Safe thoughts to you
Taffy x
 
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