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Stacocd1
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Hi
so this is a bit of a long story - many years ago before I was diagnosed with ocd - I was out with my friends at an engagement party and couldn’t remember the whole night and was panicking as I had been drinking and thought what if I had cheated on my now husband and I feel so sick about it, but I kept getting thoughts coming into my head that I would cheat with my ex and I wouldn’t be bothered by this, that night we went to a club and in my head thoughts came in saying I would only be going to this night club to see if my ex was there to cheat and it was like I wasn’t bothered by this thought and like I would just do it, this isn’t me at all! When I got to the club some guy tried to chat me up and I told him I had a boyfriend, as the night went on I kept thinking I had cheated and couldn’t remember and I was panicking! And thoughts popped into my head about texting my Ex and that the only reason I never done it was because he would tell my now husband, but that thought doesn’t make sense because if I had sent my ex the text I would not be continuing my relationship with my now husband I just couldn’t continue a relationship on a lie! But the next day I felt so guilty about those thoughts as I’m not like that but it really felt like I would just cheat and I wouldn’t be bothered I don’t think or remember feeling any anxiety back then but this was 8 years ago, We had only been together 7 months or something by this point, we are happily married with a child and I couldn’t think of anyone better to spend the rest of my life with! But just can’t get these thoughts out my head and feel like such a bad person! (Me and my husband got together about 2 months after me and my ex broke up and was with him previously for 7 years) it was a toxic relationship and I was so stupid to stay with him for the amount of things he done to me. Someone please respond to this I feel so alone!
so this is a bit of a long story - many years ago before I was diagnosed with ocd - I was out with my friends at an engagement party and couldn’t remember the whole night and was panicking as I had been drinking and thought what if I had cheated on my now husband and I feel so sick about it, but I kept getting thoughts coming into my head that I would cheat with my ex and I wouldn’t be bothered by this, that night we went to a club and in my head thoughts came in saying I would only be going to this night club to see if my ex was there to cheat and it was like I wasn’t bothered by this thought and like I would just do it, this isn’t me at all! When I got to the club some guy tried to chat me up and I told him I had a boyfriend, as the night went on I kept thinking I had cheated and couldn’t remember and I was panicking! And thoughts popped into my head about texting my Ex and that the only reason I never done it was because he would tell my now husband, but that thought doesn’t make sense because if I had sent my ex the text I would not be continuing my relationship with my now husband I just couldn’t continue a relationship on a lie! But the next day I felt so guilty about those thoughts as I’m not like that but it really felt like I would just cheat and I wouldn’t be bothered I don’t think or remember feeling any anxiety back then but this was 8 years ago, We had only been together 7 months or something by this point, we are happily married with a child and I couldn’t think of anyone better to spend the rest of my life with! But just can’t get these thoughts out my head and feel like such a bad person! (Me and my husband got together about 2 months after me and my ex broke up and was with him previously for 7 years) it was a toxic relationship and I was so stupid to stay with him for the amount of things he done to me. Someone please respond to this I feel so alone!