Cheating ocd please help and respond

[Stacocd1]

Hi

so this is a bit of a long story - many years ago before I was diagnosed with ocd - I was out with my friends at an engagement party and couldn’t remember the whole night and was panicking as I had been drinking and thought what if I had cheated on my now husband and I feel so sick about it, but I kept getting thoughts coming into my head that I would cheat with my ex and I wouldn’t be bothered by this, that night we went to a club and in my head thoughts came in saying I would only be going to this night club to see if my ex was there to cheat and it was like I wasn’t bothered by this thought and like I would just do it, this isn’t me at all! When I got to the club some guy tried to chat me up and I told him I had a boyfriend, as the night went on I kept thinking I had cheated and couldn’t remember and I was panicking! And thoughts popped into my head about texting my Ex and that the only reason I never done it was because he would tell my now husband, but that thought doesn’t make sense because if I had sent my ex the text I would not be continuing my relationship with my now husband I just couldn’t continue a relationship on a lie! But the next day I felt so guilty about those thoughts as I’m not like that but it really felt like I would just cheat and I wouldn’t be bothered I don’t think or remember feeling any anxiety back then but this was 8 years ago, We had only been together 7 months or something by this point, we are happily married with a child and I couldn’t think of anyone better to spend the rest of my life with! But just can’t get these thoughts out my head and feel like such a bad person! (Me and my husband got together about 2 months after me and my ex broke up and was with him previously for 7 years) it was a toxic relationship and I was so stupid to stay with him for the amount of things he done to me. Someone please respond to this I feel so alone!

 

[Tawny]

Try to reduce the stress in your life, eat well, get out for a walk every day, try to calm your mind and body down and maybe that will help.

 

[Doingmybest1996]

Hi,

I know exactly how you are feeling, I am having the same problem now where I cant get things out of my head!

Shall we chat?

 

[Comfort23]

I read something that suggested intrusive thoughts tend to be about doing things the opposite of who we are. The reason they're so scary is because we abhor doing the things the thoughts suggest. So, someone who loves animals may have thoughts about hurting animals. Someone who is fiercely loyal to their spouse may have thoughts about cheating. Whereas animal abusers and cheaters aren't tormented by these thoughts because they don't have those values. I believe recovery from ocd and other mental health struggles is possible so please don't lose hope.