REply TO Babs.
i was on respoadone 1mg twice a day and diazapam 5mg twice a day and had to be changed to seraquil and the diazapam as i had taken a reaction to the resperadone, things not too good at the monent i have been very agitated and wreaking the place at any slight thing, i was so close to throwing all the clothes in the bin just cause they were anoying me looking at them i cant sit still am always trying to get out of the house away from everyone and have even told my partner that im leaving him and the kids i just want to run away and im fearful of my kids safety as i threw the table and they could have been there i havent slept properly in over a week i think im in a hyopmanic state but it goes higher every now and then i dont know i did feel really good last week but now i dont i think im on the edge of being out of control but im excusted and it dosnt matter how many sleeping tablets i take as they dont work im convinced they are fakes and my docs is trying to make me worse my cpn is great but i cant always reach her i have done what theyve said and not touched any drink in case it was making me worse as it has done in the past and ended up in AandE after trying to jump from a moving car and pull the steering wheel from the driver into a wall,
now i just feel like running away and getting drunk and staying away from my family my minds racing i cant even speak hardly as it sound like dub ba da how do i stop this before it gets really out of hand,
Hi babs,
it sounds as if you are really suffering right now. I feel for you. thes feelings can be so distressing. Have you tried calm warm baths, and some gentle music like enya, cut out caffeine all together, try chamomile tea, chamomile aromatherapy massages with French lavender in small amounts as it can have the opposite effect and be stimulating if used in large amounts. Lie back on you bed or ina comfortable chair and try to listen to a specific relaxation CD, the gentle music can cover other thoughts sometimes, close your eyes to reduce visual stimulation as this calms all the senses, breathing and yoga and walking whilst breathing gently, in a calm quiet place, perhaps by the sea with a friend so you don't feel afraid and are not alone.
Make sure your bedroom is dark at night so the morning summer light does not wake you up too early and disturb your sleep. This can make a big difference, and you may need to put up a dark blind or another curtain. This can make a huge difference in the summer. You really need to see your psychiatrist as soon as possible I believe. You do not appear to be on an actual mood stabilizer which surprises me, and I am sure this would make a real difference added to your seroquel. Try and get a referral to a specialist mood disorders clinic. I would not rely on general psychiatrists or GPs to get the balance of meds right personally on their own. The very best of luck. Please Do let me know how you get on.
I am sure this will pass. keep telling yourself this will pass, and breath out after you repeat it then breath in gently. hold for 4 inbetween each in and our breath, and mantra. You may prefer top find your own mantra, a calming chant ,a positive calming statement that you repeat to yourself. It can be very reassuring. I will pray for you tonight too and hope you will feels calmer soon and your distress banished. Please read my other posts if this helps but not now. Best to limit the input and let your mind calm down. Please se your psychiatrist soon as possible.
From, Hope4you.