- Dec 8, 2014
Hi I'm a mum of a 24 year old son who has bipolar. He also has drug addiction. I'm finding it very difficult as he's trying to stop and needs his boyfriend here to help with his low mood. I don't feel relaxed I my own house as I don't want him here as there has been lots of problems in the past..domestic violence . They had a flat once. I'm depressed through my job loss and now find it doubly difficult to be assertive. He plays on my weaknesses. I feel so alone there no family..Other than his dad who doesn't live near us. I feel my life is over and his is over before its really started. He's been offered rehab but not accepted it yet. I have so many regrets and so much guilt as to why I'm in this situation today. So many bad choices I have made even down to having him and deciding to bring him up alone. I'm 49 and had my dream job as a nurse..It all went wrong when I became addicted to cannabis. .I'm looking for any job which won't be easy to find. I feel so guilty and pathetic I'm finding it hard to see anything good in my life and guilty for not appreciating that at least I have my health. I'm taking antidepressants which aren't helping as yet. just dread getting up in the morning as I carnt see how things will change.