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FallenAngel2

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I took a month off this place to get myself help. Along the way I hit some major bumps and pow got signed off work again.

Let's start with what shouldve been my first day back at work on the 2nd of March. After 2 weeks off I was back at work and then that evening my mum was rushed into hospital with renal failure. Turns out she had a kidney stone and it was so big it blocked her good kidney and killed the other. She then confessed she had blood in her urine leading up to it weeks earlier and didn't say anything because of my problems which made me feel like shit. I think she felt a sense of being there for me before herself. She had a 4 day stay and had a stent fitted whilst she waits for the op. The next day I had my mental health appointment and only 2 hours sleep after the A&E episode with my mum left me an angry blubbering wreck. I was escorted home and given a month off and meds. I refused the meds. The psychiatrist told me that stopping my meds like I did led to this episode. Totally discounting the days I felt ok I guess. They then prescribed me aripripazole, fluoxetine and pregabalin. I then get serotonin syndrome from the fluoxetine!! It sucked and caused me to be even more aggressive.

Cue sex life and I ended up on a date with a girl and I totally abandoned my principles and had sex for the first time in a year. I felt cheap and let myself down. On the way home I was sick.

At the moment I am lost and not sure what the future holds. Truth is I flip from one layer to the other unsure of what or who I am and what to be. Too many lows!!

Fuck it!
 
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Ah Fallen... it sounds like you've really been through the wringer. What a nightmare. :unsure:

I'm really sorry that the appointment with mental health was such a disaster. It sounds to me as if they really weren't considering the whole story and just fobbed you off with a load of meds.
Did they offer any sort of follow-up?

Have you ever had serotonin syndrome before? I haven't but i've heard about it and it sounds really awful.:hug1:
Obviously things haven't magically got better, but are things a bit more settled at all?

I hope your Mum is getting better.
Please don't beat yourself up or feel guilty because she didn't tell you what was going on, because whilst i'm sure you'd rather have known, it was her choice to keep things quiet.
 
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FallenAngel2

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Hey SS,

Never had Seretonin Syndrome before. It is horrible. It literally feels like someone is trying to jump out of your skin and mind.

I got told by the support services that because I get suicidal tendencies that I can't get counselling in case they trigger me to commit it! :cry:

I do give up with support services!
 

MarlieeB

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Sorry I didn't see this before.

Sorry you have had such a rough time :hug1:'s

The services really do suck don't they.

You know where I am.

xxxx
 
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