- Dec 15, 2020
- United Kingdom
Hi this is my first post. I was dx with PTSD after some abuse in my relationship and also childhood. And a lot of bad choices on my part. I still blame myself and am not sure it was really abuse. Me and my husband worked through things, it was hard, and the abuse has stopped now. But a new problem has happened. His sister has told us about a genetic condition that he has to be tested for. It all became a big fight as his family will not talk about it. Then I find out his parents knew all along. And never told us. The condition can be life threatening if not known about (we have kids). My husbands dad has been very verbally abusive to him and so has his sister . It reminds me of how my husband would deny my /my kids experience and I feel utterly shell shocked and am now not sure I can trust my husband. I told him this, as I was feeling unable to cope-i wanted reassued- and he got really angry and told me how much I hurt him as I'm the only one he has left. I feel so bad he needs me now but I'm so scared and untrusting inside, I'm not coping well and am not sure if I'm paranoid or if he is untrustworthy. I used to defend his dad and now I feel so stupid and a mug. I always believe people cant be so bad. I always think they're just misunderstood but I can't believe what's happened. And it's making me doubt my husband again. I'm so shocked a parent could with hold such information from their child and them attack them on asking about it. I'm utterly lost. It's been a long line of stuff and I'm overwhelmed. I have a therapist but it's the time in between. And I even find it hard to talk to her though I'm starting to trust her after 3 yrs. Often I want to sack her because she isn't available enough. And also I don't want to become reliant on her. Does anyone understand any of this? I can't seem to get the help I need.