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kurtov
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- Oct 5, 2008
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hey,
It was another weekend which i looked forward to secluding myself to my apartment, buying a nice 2 litre bottle of wine and 2 packs of cigs, and basically dedicating that time to being alone, watching movies and playing oblivion on 360.
This is the life that i did not want for myself. but now have found myself living. at this time, like most weekend, i found it very dull and wish to have been more productive with myself. although at the beginning oof each wek i jsut cant wait for the weekend so i can seclude myself again.
It is a very uncomfortable cycle which i am caught and dont know how to escape it.
i feel stuck here in this city, alone with no friends or family and dont know what to do with myself.
There was a party of a co worker tonight for his birthday, i was invited and jsut told them no thanks at the last minute. I hate that, because i know that this is the sort of thing that will bring me out of the shell that im in, but at the same time, last time iwent to one of their parties i was denounced and made a fool of from this persons mother and that night nearly killed myself.
anwyay, i go on too much, basically i am looking for anyone who can help me relate with this problem,
Right now i find myself doing nothing but working, drinking, watching movies, reading and playing games....and the majority of this is alone. im not sure what kind of help im asking but this is the problem. im alone and drink every day now. so, i guess thats all.
It was another weekend which i looked forward to secluding myself to my apartment, buying a nice 2 litre bottle of wine and 2 packs of cigs, and basically dedicating that time to being alone, watching movies and playing oblivion on 360.
This is the life that i did not want for myself. but now have found myself living. at this time, like most weekend, i found it very dull and wish to have been more productive with myself. although at the beginning oof each wek i jsut cant wait for the weekend so i can seclude myself again.
It is a very uncomfortable cycle which i am caught and dont know how to escape it.
i feel stuck here in this city, alone with no friends or family and dont know what to do with myself.
There was a party of a co worker tonight for his birthday, i was invited and jsut told them no thanks at the last minute. I hate that, because i know that this is the sort of thing that will bring me out of the shell that im in, but at the same time, last time iwent to one of their parties i was denounced and made a fool of from this persons mother and that night nearly killed myself.
anwyay, i go on too much, basically i am looking for anyone who can help me relate with this problem,
Right now i find myself doing nothing but working, drinking, watching movies, reading and playing games....and the majority of this is alone. im not sure what kind of help im asking but this is the problem. im alone and drink every day now. so, i guess thats all.