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Cant seem to find happiness while broke

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BpTyrant

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So lately I have been avoiding spending too much on anything that's not a necessity because I am trying to catch up on my bills 1st

But in doing so I seem to not be able to find any kind of lasting happiness

Sometimes i can be happy for a short amount of time, but for the most part I am just passing time in some way

at work I try to stay busy without falling too far behind, but I am especially miserable when I know a certain Supervisor is around because if it's a slow day with 1 production line up (I work in a factory) he seems intent to harass me with BS if I am caught up and look comfortable, so I have to find 1 or 2 other things to do to fall behind on my work and then take extra time to catch up; because otherwise if he is around and there isnt another production line up he will try to find time to harass me

And it's only him, theres 6+ other supervisors for different shifts/different parts of the factory (the supervisors occasionally rotate shifts) and they never start bothering me 60 seconds after a production line goes down like this 1 supervisor does; I swear it's a "Power Trip" for him

Outside of work either I'm sleeping (sometimes I lay in bed doing nothing until I finally decide I cant just lay in bed, so I get up and do something for the short amount of time I have before I have to get ready for work) or watching something or playing a video game; but the entertainment is always fleeting, sometimes I do something just to do something and pass the time

When I have spare money and can buy things, I am much happier, so I think that's a big part of my failure to find happiness lately
 
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With all the trouble at work, earning money and then spending it on something nice could make it all feel worthwhile. This also causes problems when you don't have enough to buy things.

Perhaps you can find something else that is free to be happy about? Maybe go to a park or library? My library rents movies for free. Maybe just go to a nice part of your town and take pictures? Or window shop? Volunteer at animal shelter and spend time petting all the animals?
 
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With all the trouble at work, earning money and then spending it on something nice could make it all feel worthwhile. This also causes problems when you don't have enough to buy things.

Perhaps you can find something else that is free to be happy about? Maybe go to a park or library? My library rents movies for free. Maybe just go to a nice part of your town and take pictures? Or window shop? Volunteer at animal shelter and spend time petting all the animals?
I wish I could spend money on stuff I want

I have spent some money on myself on things just to keep myself in some sort of "Middle" rather than being flat out miserable, the biggest thing being Diapers as I have an ABDL Side (I am not incontinent, it's just something I used to find joy in; but lately any joy I find in anything is fleeting)

Besides that I really am trying to reign in on my spending so I haven't ordered much take out (whereas I used to before I got so behind on my bills I am pretty much constantly broke without excessively spending on a regular basis) and I have kept my spending on video games low (I just bought a game I havent played yet, but that was with money I got from selling another game, so it wasnt like I spent money I needed for something else)

I watch whatever entertainment I want via Media Streaming, so I really dont need to rent a movie or anything, and I have cats and dogs already which help me feel a little better and less lonely than I would be without them
 
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