- Dec 2, 2020
Does it ever ease up? It's like life just keeps throwing stuff at you trying to find your breaking point. Am I just crap at handling it? I deal with one thing and 2 others things pop up in its place. I spent years trying to plan my life, live carefully and do things properly, trying not to "rock the boat" just for it all to go tits up, now I'm trying to chill out more and try to enjoy being alive and I'm just in situations where I Immediately think- "should have done this better, should have checked that more thoroughly" because someone else's actions have caused me hassle. Its all still going so wrong. It seems like everyone else can live their lives not caring about consequences or how their actions affect others and I'm the one left picking up pieces and getting screwed over at every turn. I can't trust my judgements or my decisions, whatever I try is wrong. I've recently realised that im a naiive clueless idiot, thinking most people are decent when they're not. Do you really only get any where in life by lying and stepping on others? I don't know if my brain can handle always being on edge not being able to trust anything. I want to go live on an island with all the animals, they're so much better than people!