A few months ago I had a psychotic episode which caused me to reflect on my life and made me realise I have been a bad person for a number of years and I never even realised that I had problems. Since this, the guilt has been unbearable and some days I just don’t know how I can go on. I just don’t know why I never realised before and stopped my behaviour. I have started seeing a therapist and she thinks I might have BPD. Whilst this may explain some of my past behaviour I don’t believe it explains it all. My therapist just says I can learn to manage BPD but I guess what I want to know is if it is possible to change? I feel like I have gone through a revelation and I am no longer the same person I was before My psychosis happened, in a way I have seen the light. I am so remorseful and honestly don’t know why I was the way I was - part of me wonders if I was just bad rather than having a diagnosis.