- Jan 11, 2021
- United States
Hey. Today I was on a call with my boyfriend and I was acting like nothing was wrong and carrying along, but inside I was hurt and I just wanted to cry and I didn't want to exist on Earth anymore, I felt like I didn't belong where I was and I didn't deserve the one I was talking to, he was funny and nice, he made me laugh but then I broke out and I couldn't speak because I was hurting so badly and I couldn't think of a way to tell him. I told him I had to go for the rest of the day and I could tell he was upset and hurt. I think right now was I being fake? I noticed how he made me happy then this deep feeling of sadness came over me and I wanted to cry. I went outside to take my dogs out to the bathroom and I started crying at my best friend/companion's grave and went inside and now I'm fine but I feel upset that the one I love dearly isn't here. What should I do?