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Can someone explain to me is this porn escalation or Groinal response ?

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Hello,I have this ocd intrusive thoughts which are bothering me but I had HOCD before this even happened, I was watching porn maybe 2 or 3 times a week because I could not have sex with my girlfriend at that time, I was very horny because of all the sexy females in my workplace. Once when I was watching pornography I was changing videos because I watch them for about 2 or 4 days in the row once a day so I decided to look for other videos but still in the same category and same actress but I stumbled across a video which triggered my HOCD really bad And it gave me really bad Groinal response that I wanted to stop having, but It made to have unwanted orgasm(I know Groinal response can do that)which was Disgusting and I tried to stop it so bad while having a panic attack because of it. But now my OCD thoughts are telling me this was because of porn escalation even though I was still looking for same category and womans only. I wasn’t looking for any kinky wierd porn or this type of porn that triggered my hocd and gave me this bad Groinal response. My ocd thought are trying to tell me it was porn escalation not Groinal Response. It is very traumatic for me.

Can someone help me Please ? I have been strugling with OCD for 17 years now
 
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hi OcdSufferer :welcome: !

I think try not to worry about where you mind has gone
during a sexual fantasy
I think its a bit like dreams and can be very random sometimes
plus the mind tends to go where we have told it not to go !

this has all gone on in private for you
as part of you exploring your sexuality

and in the end you can take what you like out of it
and leave the rest

Zoe
 
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hi OcdSufferer :welcome: !

I think try not to worry about where you mind has gone
during a sexual fantasy
I think its a bit like dreams and can be very random sometimes
plus the mind tends to go where we have told it not to go !

this has all gone on in private for you
as part of you exploring your sexuality

and in the end you can take what you like out of it
and leave the rest

Zoe
I think you got my post a bit wrong it was no sexual fantasy, I found a video that triggered my ocd by accident I had Groinal response which caused me to have unwanted orgasm and panic attack, but my intrusive thoughts are telling me it was porn escalation because I was looking for other videos but it was still in the same category, So no way it was porn escalation yet my ocd is telling me something different
 
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No matter what words you use it all goes back to OCD
 
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OcdSuffer

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Yes, but explaining sometimes makes it easier it’s not that I’m looking for reassurance
 
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fragrant_violet

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What are you lookung for?

Please get therapy
 
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What are you lookung for?

Please get therapy
What I’m asking is this question to help me solve the problem, I cannot afford the therpaist.

2 years ago I was watching porn normal heterosexual porn, it was maybe 2 or 4 days in the row once a day, but that last day I said to myself that I was going to masturbate one last time because few days in the row is too much for me, so I was watching porn but I was bored with the same videos because I watched them in those days so I went looking for new videos in the category heteroporn but I stumbled across a video that triggered my HOCD really but so I was looking at it to do a compulsion to make sure I’m not aroused, but the Groinal response was becoming stronger and stronger and I was having a very strong anxiety and irritation because of it and the Groinal finally caused me to have unwanted orgasm(groinals can do that), this made my hocd worse and gave me panic attacks and more groinals, but After reading stories about people with porn escalation I have intrusive doubts and thoughts that whappened to me was not Groinal response but porn escalation
 
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fragrant_violet

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Dont expect many replies here
Especially from ladies
 
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I dont see the difference
between porn escalation and groinal response
 
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May be lay off it, if it is doing your head in. Hope things get better. Take care
 
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