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bluetenrec
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I don't even know if i am in the right forum. 
i am even panicing loads about writing this but its better than going to the doctor. i got a diagnosis of bipolar and bpd a couple of years ago. i dont know if the things i think - like i hate myself, everyone is going to leave me, wanting to punch random people - are real or if i am making them up. i am getting quite paranoid. but then again is that my imagination? i really have no idea what in my head is real and what is not. i am terrified of letting people in and telling them this kind of stuff cos they could shout, tell me i am stupid, a liar or a timewaster.
but i dont know what to do cos the doctor probably wont believe me. i hope someone here will take me seriously. i don't know what to do. please help....

i am even panicing loads about writing this but its better than going to the doctor. i got a diagnosis of bipolar and bpd a couple of years ago. i dont know if the things i think - like i hate myself, everyone is going to leave me, wanting to punch random people - are real or if i am making them up. i am getting quite paranoid. but then again is that my imagination? i really have no idea what in my head is real and what is not. i am terrified of letting people in and telling them this kind of stuff cos they could shout, tell me i am stupid, a liar or a timewaster.
but i dont know what to do cos the doctor probably wont believe me. i hope someone here will take me seriously. i don't know what to do. please help....