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So I’m very sure that I have POCD but sometimes my mind tells me I don’t and I just have some signs and it really makes me feel like I don’t and that I am a bad person which is scary. Whenever I have a thought, or I see a kid I do this weird thing and it seems very odd. I bite the inside of my cheek. I don’t know if I do it to prevent the thought or to prevent a thought from popping up when seeing a kid.. I don’t know. All I know is that it freaks me out because it seems creepy. Maybe I just do it and read to much into it. But sometimes it’s very intentional. Should I just let this go? And I’m so so sorry for posting so much I’ll try to take a break.
 
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All of my intrusive thoughts revolve around kids, family members, all that not fun stuff.. do I let all this go?
 
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What if it keeps happening to me?
 
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Also, this just happened. I want to post this here so I don’t have to make more threads. I was watching this twitch streamer and they were eating food. And then I read this comment from this person saying “oh I wish I was an adult and I could make my own food.” (I don’t know) anyway, then since I knew they were kid every single time they commented I would look at it and then I would prevent myself from looking when they would comment but I couldn’t and I intentionally kept looking.. i feel like this is very bad and very weird. I can’t get past the fact I kept intentionally looking.. is this bad? Do I let it go? So sorry
 
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And I kept continuing to look for their comments or when they would go to comment.. ugh what do I do?
 
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I can tell you been obsessing about this for a while huh? The thought keeps on lingering in your mind? It’s because you were avoiding the situation that would trigger your ocd (trying to not look at the comment) but then you decided to go ahead and look at it because it’s a normal thing but then your ocd makes you doubt yourself so then you feel guilty for looking.

Avoiding situations that trigger your ocd is a compulsion. So is seeking reassurance. You need to stop giving in to the compulsions that’s the only way you’re going to beat this.

If I tell you what you want to hear, which is you’re not a bad person, it’s just ocd, etc. it’s only going to make your anxiety go down temporarily. Your ocd will make you doubt yourself even harder next time.

Try to think of it in the long run. Accept the uncertainty of the thought (not the meaning of it) and move on. You might be a really bad person or you might not be. Who knows. Get on with your life. Easy to say, very hard to do. That’s why you have to be brave if you want to beat this.
 
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I can tell you been obsessing about this for a while huh? The thought keeps on lingering in your mind? It’s because you were avoiding the situation that would trigger your ocd (trying to not look at the comment) but then you decided to go ahead and look at it because it’s a normal thing but then your ocd makes you doubt yourself so then you feel guilty for looking.

Avoiding situations that trigger your ocd is a compulsion. So is seeking reassurance. You need to stop giving in to the compulsions that’s the only way you’re going to beat this.

If I tell you what you want to hear, which is you’re not a bad person, it’s just ocd, etc. it’s only going to make your anxiety go down temporarily. Your ocd will make you doubt yourself even harder next time.

Try to think of it in the long run. Accept the uncertainty of the thought (not the meaning of it) and move on. You might be a really bad person or you might not be. Who knows. Get on with your life. Easy to say, very hard to do. That’s why you have to be brave if you want to beat this.
I know that ‘seeking reassurance’ is bad for me, but I don’t know how to not do it. I have literally tried but every time I just end up giving in. And the uncertainty of the thought is what drives me insane, the fact that I could be a bad person is absolutely terrifying and makes it even worse. Anyway, I’ll try to not give in. Thanks for the help.
 
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I know that ‘seeking reassurance’ is bad for me, but I don’t know how to not do it. I have literally tried but every time I just end up giving in. And the uncertainty of the thought is what drives me insane, the fact that I could be a bad person is absolutely terrifying and makes it even worse. Anyway, I’ll try to not give in. Thanks for the help.
It’s not easy trust me I know. Everyone with ocd has been where you been before. The urge to perform compulsions can get really strong. You’re not actually anxious about being a bad person, you’re anxious about the uncertainty of it. You need to learn to let go of wanting to be certain. The anxiety will go down as long as you let yourself feel it without doing anything to get rid of it. Continue living life as if the thought isn’t important. And then after that it gets easier. If you want to beat ocd you have to be prepared to challenge yourself, there’s really no other way except maybe going on meds.

If I continue to let my OCD bully me and waste my time and cause too much distress, when I’m old I know I’ll regret not putting in effort to get my ocd under control. OCD has taken a lot from me because I let it.
 
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It’s not easy trust me I know. Everyone with ocd has been where you been before. The urge to perform compulsions can get really strong. You’re not actually anxious about being a bad person, you’re anxious about the uncertainty of it. You need to learn to let go of wanting to be certain. The anxiety will go down as long as you let yourself feel it without doing anything to get rid of it. Continue living life as if the thought isn’t important. And then after that it gets easier. If you want to beat ocd you have to be prepared to challenge yourself, there’s really no other way except maybe going on meds.

If I continue to let my OCD bully me and waste my time and cause too much distress, when I’m old I know I’ll regret not putting in effort to get my ocd under control. OCD has taken a lot from me because I let it.
Thank-you so much for all your help, I really appreciate it. Seriously thank-you.
 
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So I’m very sure that I have POCD but sometimes my mind tells me I don’t and I just have some signs and it really makes me feel like I don’t and that I am a bad person which is scary. Whenever I have a thought, or I see a kid I do this weird thing and it seems very odd. I bite the inside of my cheek. I don’t know if I do it to prevent the thought or to prevent a thought from popping up when seeing a kid.. I don’t know. All I know is that it freaks me out because it seems creepy. Maybe I just do it and read to much into it. But sometimes it’s very intentional. Should I just let this go? And I’m so so sorry for posting so much I’ll try to take a break.
The things that are listed are symptoms of OCD whether you have it or not. Things that have helped the obsessions are things such as allowing the thoughts to flow through the brain instead of obsessing over them. By rejecting them and trying to push them out just makes it worse and gets in stuck in the brain to where you think that you are a horrible person and a pedophile. A thought is just a thought nothing more. Now if you are thinking of the child and get aroused by it then that a different story.

I am awful at apologizing over every little thing. I noticed you apologized for posting to much. Let me guess, you apologize for everything and worry people will be mad at you. Even after you apologize you still worry that your apology wasn't good enough or the think that it was unnecessary and they are going to be mad at you for whatever the reason. You probably repeat this over and over in your head (obsessing over it).

Think of it this way, lets say you are walking down the street and see a women and think oh man the things I would do to her. you don't beat yourself up because she is of legal age and may joke about it to your buddy. f you have a thought of a child then your a pedophile? No it is just a thought.

I have gotten down to where I watched to much porn as a child, had parents that were not around to tell me that I shouldn't and it became ok to me as a kid and throughout my life, along with a bucket full of other mental trauma, molestation, momma and dad issues. I have recently acknowledged that and am getting better. The impure thoughts I have gotten down to no matter the thought every sexual thought saying I am not going to acknowledge this thought and move on to the next thought. It has helped me. It has helped me because due to my obsession issues if I allow to obsess over one sexual thought then my brain makes me obsess over all of them so I have just decided to not keep one single sexual thought in my head after it comes in. Even if its masturbating or sex with my wife. Those things are hard not to obsess over but probably shouldn't.
Obsessing over a good thought or a bad thought is still obsessing.

There are a thousand things that can help treat I would say this forum is a start but would really go the therapy. They can test you and tell you if you have any mental problems and give you good therapy advice.
 
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I know that ‘seeking reassurance’ is bad for me, but I don’t know how to not do it. I have literally tried but every time I just end up giving in. And the uncertainty of the thought is what drives me insane, the fact that I could be a bad person is absolutely terrifying and makes it even worse. Anyway, I’ll try to not give in. Thanks for the help.
therapist told me something that helped out with the bad person and good person thing. There is no such thing as a bad person or good person just a person that makes bad decisions or good decisions.
 
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