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Can anyone please help me?

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cassie0799

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Hello,

i am really new to this sort of thing and im not sure what else to do.

i sound so stupid writing this and its genuinely embarrassing, and im not sure if its classed as an eating disorder - just severe anxiety around food, i guess.

for as long as i remember, i have struggled with food. i used to be an extremely fussy eater and be somewhat intimidated by food, and this then developed into being scared to eat in front of people - and after recovering from both of these things, my anxieties turned into being scared of what i eat around people.

this is what i have struggled with the most. i get so nervous choosing what to eat in front of people. the physical eating part i am fine with now, but i just get so scared about WHAT i eat. not because im scared itll be messy to eat etc or how i look when im eating - physically talking about food i would like gives me extreme anxiety. i struggle to say food that i like, and meals out are horrible experiences for me as all i do is panic and think what if they think im weird for wanting to eat that? or something like that? i always try to pick the same food as other people to avoid this, but its taking such a toll on my life - i just want to understand what it is and how i can help it.

i have never known or heard of anyone with the same sort of condition as i have but it is literally the most destroying thing ever. all i want is to be normal and not be scared of choosing what i want to eat. i get physically nervous, i talk more, i cant answer questions straight, i generally get a bit hyperemotional over it. there is nothing online about anyone who feels this way too and how i can combat it.

it honestly sounds so bizarre and pathetic when i type it out, but this is something that consumes the majority of my life and i just want to be normal. i am so desperate to know what this is and if theres anything i can do

thank you
Cass
 
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cassie0799

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sounds hard, are you seeing a professional? :grouphug:
im unable to as i physically cant talk about it in person, so this is the first step ive took really. all i want is to know what it is as ive never heard of anyone who struggles with the same thing so i dont know what steps i can take to try and recover from it :(
 
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Mary26

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I'm so glad you reached out. Anxiety manifests in all different ways and you have nothing to be embarrassed about. We all have our "stuff". I work with people who are suffering from all kinds of thoughts and behaviors and none of them are met with judgement-only compassion. Life isn't easy but we're all connected and here to help each other. My opinion? Keep reaching out--talk about it--shine a light on it because it will have much less power over you if you don't keep it hidden. (hugs)
 
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cassie0799

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I'm so glad you reached out. Anxiety manifests in all different ways and you have nothing to be embarrassed about. We all have our "stuff". I work with people who are suffering from all kinds of thoughts and behaviors and none of them are met with judgement-only compassion. Life isn't easy but we're all connected and here to help each other. My opinion? Keep reaching out--talk about it--shine a light on it because it will have much less power over you if you don't keep it hidden. (hugs)
oh wow, thank you so much. i really wasnt expecting to have any responses let alone something as lovely as that.

i really struggle to talk about it in person, i just really want to find some sort of way to try and understand what exactly it is and to try and get rid of it, if that makes any sense:(
 
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Mary26

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oh wow, thank you so much. i really wasnt expecting to have any responses let alone something as lovely as that.

i really struggle to talk about it in person, i just really want to find some sort of way to try and understand what exactly it is and to try and get rid of it, if that makes any sense:(
Yes, of course that makes sense. Maybe you could try stream of consciousness writing in a journal to explore it. Or you're welcome to send me a private message. I may not be able to respond right away but I will respond.
 
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