- Jul 30, 2009
Hello all. I'm new to this so thanks for your patience.
I'm nearly 40 and have not long come out of a very destructive relationship of 11 years. There was domestic violence and a general undermining of my self esteem.
What was originally fear turned into loathing, but I stayed out of routine and also because on the few times i did leave, I would be followed about and begged to take him back which eventually wore me down and so we got back together. I finally left last year, after much help from good friends who convinced me I was better than him and I COULD be on my own.
I met someone else, but I wanted to take it slowly because of what I'd been through before. But the trouble is that, although my new bloke is absolutely fantastic and wouldn't hurt a hair on my head, I feel very down and unable to cope very well with anything. I have started taking anti-depressants because I find it hard to be happy.
Everything is going well for me now, but I get the hump if my new bloke talks about his ex wives or any other woman he might have dated. I blame him if something I may have planned goes wrong, even though its nothing to do with him. I'm scared I will lose him if I keep being like this and that's the last thing I want, but I dont know how to stop being unhappy and so jealous. I try to talk to him about it, but unless you have similar feelings, it's hard to understand
Can anyone help me please???