BPD with Severe Psychosis

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I am 56 years old and recently diagnosed with BPD and Severe Psychosis. If I had only known this when I was younger. These mental illnesses just do not come out of nowhere.

I do not think I would have ever told anyone this years ago, but at least I would have an idea of why I acted the way I did. I went through people's life's like a tornado. Never thinking about the damage I left behind.

Today I am so much more sensitive to others to a point-by bad ass comes out and rears its ugly head.
At least now I can understand why so many awful tings happened in my life. I am de-wiring right now trying change things around and working with my mental health.
 
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It's good to hear you made progress. Is BPD bipolar disorder or borderline personality disorder? I see that abbreviation a lot on here and I've never known which one it stands for.
 
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It is Bi polar Disorder. I really do not think that is a good diagnosis for me. I do fir every symptom of Severe Psychosis. I would go under Schizophrenia. I think my Psych is trying to give me the benefit of the doubt. Or I should say Reality. My Aunty was Schizophrenic -I just never told my psych about this genetic gene in family. It is amazing what we do not disclose is the things that our hurting us the most.
I worked very well with Schizophrenic clients as I understood their distrust paranoia. I am high functioning whereas most people stereotype Schizo's....I am on Schizo... medications so maybe my psych knows.

I do not have mood swings only when provoked and using my survival instinct.
 
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My past diagnoses were first depression with psychosis, then schizoaffective disorder, depressive type, then schizophrenia. Sometime diagnoses change over time. Schizoaffective disorder, bipolar type is a diagnosis that the person has symptoms of bipolar and symptoms of schizophrenia. My dad had an uncle with schizophrenia and there are 5 cases of bipolar on my mom's side of the family, but I've never been manic.
 
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I started out with major Depression and then it progressed from there. I had really not seen any changes in my behaviors but I have been going to the Psych for over 9 years.

Do you have hallucinations?

I did for a while scarest thing ever. I have audio hallucinations frequently. I did have visual. Not a fun thing.

I went off my medications for 6 weeks and this is when it all happened. I think it was withdraw symptoms.

Appreciate your input. You sound very close to my own diagnosises.
 
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Now if I do not stay on meds the police come to my door to Baker Act me put me in mental place. Talk about sudden recovery when they are questioning you.
 
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Bipolar disorder is believed to be very closely tied to schizophrenia spectrum disorders, and if I'm right it's considered a psychotic disorder as well as a mood disorder. Psychotic episodes occur during mood states only, while in schizophrenia episodes don't have any limits like that. From my knowledge, that's the only difference. I know a lot of people will have their diagnosis change a few times, so it may be that you have something on the schizophrenic spectrum rather than bipolar.
 
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Hi nomask I just went to see a real psychiatrist two days ago. He changed my diagnosis to PTSD and when something triggers me I become psychotic. I have had many trauma 's in my life all leading to whay I act out. My aunt had schizophrenia so I am close but Dr Patel said as long as the voices are not talking directly to me I have PTSD. Thought I would add this. Hugs