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TicToc
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I had a serious outburst last night ...I turned to drinking to try and quell my emptiness but it just escalated and now I think my husband hates me and is going to leave or find someone who doesn't have bpd and is better than me .
I have fits of extreme rage and smashed the house up last night and I don't know what to do anymore . My husband doesn't seem to understand my condition and just thinks I'm a horrible person im sure of it .
I never believe a word he says I'm ALWAYS suspicious of him and that he's cheating on me ... Does anybody else have this or any coping mechanisms when episodes occur. I can't be like this anymore I'm going to lose my family and I don't want that.
I also feel like my husband is only with me for our son ....he seems very disinterested in me (and I don't blame him from my recent behaviour) but I don't know whether to stay or to leave I'm so confused angry and upset all of the time
Any advice xx
I have fits of extreme rage and smashed the house up last night and I don't know what to do anymore . My husband doesn't seem to understand my condition and just thinks I'm a horrible person im sure of it .
I never believe a word he says I'm ALWAYS suspicious of him and that he's cheating on me ... Does anybody else have this or any coping mechanisms when episodes occur. I can't be like this anymore I'm going to lose my family and I don't want that.
I also feel like my husband is only with me for our son ....he seems very disinterested in me (and I don't blame him from my recent behaviour) but I don't know whether to stay or to leave I'm so confused angry and upset all of the time
Any advice xx