Sometimes we have to go through what we do, to get where we are today.I relate with this so much! I was with my ex boyfriend for 5 years until I was 23. When we broke up i went a little crazy sleeping around.. i had no desire to be in a relationship, I just wanted guys for sex. It made me feel in control of my own life and body. After a year or so of doing that I started to feel horrible about myself and completely stopped talking to guys.
I've been in a healthy relationship now for almost 2 years and I look back and cant believe I put myself in such dangerous situations also. Sex doesnt validate anything for me anymore. As horrible as I feel about sleeping around I'm glad I did it at the same time because it helped my confidence and I feel okay in a committed relationship now.