BPD and Pregnancy

[survivingalone0308]

I am engaged and going to get married in the next couple of weeks. I am 25 weeks pregnant. I met my fiance earlier this year, we clicked and it just seems right. Until my BPD kicks in.

I was diagnosed with BPD last year while in a rehab. i have been dealing with it on my own since i left the rehab. Tho, now i dont' know how to. I'll find something out that happened while me and my fiance were using months ago and then its stuck on my mind and i can't get it out of my head. I dont' know how to let it go. I feel like i just sit here and wait for the relationship to end.

I don't trust anyone even when i think i do....it turns out i don't. So i need advice. we are planning on keeping our son and getting married i just need advice and tips on how to deal with this. or what i can do on my own for now till the insurance kicks in

 

[Tawny]

Using? Is he going to be good for you? I hope you are both going to live a healthy life and not be a bad influence for each other.

I would make sure i tackle the reasons why i started using or whatever other harm/avoidance i use to distract myself from life. I think that is most important.

 

[survivingalone0308]

well we are both clean now. We know that the only way this will work is by being clean.

we both came from different worlds. grew up differently. So we communicate differently and see things...different at times. The things that bug him are normal jokes to me and vise versa or he takes something serious that i don't or something that bugs me just upsets him because he has moved on from something.

We both have a little over a month clean and we changed our people, places and things to get away from it.

My BPD makes me second guess everything. Even the things that i know i want or wanted my whole life. I just am tired of my mind honestly.