- Jan 13, 2021
- Oregon, USA
I know that BPD is not an excuse, but I need to know if anyone else has experienced this or even had thoughts of this. A while ago I hurt someone I really love (my favorite person and my now fiance) physically a few times. This was during a relatively short period of really really dramatic and emotional events between me and them where both of us were at our lowest mentally. I got hurt physically as well but it wasn't as bad. I won't go into detail for the sake of privacy, but I got threatened with losing them (not a breakup) and my brain just.. took over. I regret this and feel guilty for it every day, even though they have told me numerous times that they understand why it happened and that it wouldn't happen again. Should I even be risking hurting them again, even though I'm sure it wouldn't happen? I'm terrified to lose them.