- Oct 4, 2015
- Southern California
Today is a horrible day. I can't feel anything but sadness, a friend of mine just committed suicide and I can't believe it. He never even talked about it, ever. I understand why people do it, I stumble and want to do it sometimes myself. But I just wish he would have said good bye. I wouldn't have tried to talk him out of it, when you want to do something like that, nobody can talk you out of it. But I would've offered myself up, I would've talked for hours if needed. I have other friends, but they view these feelings of depression as a passing thing, and they don't want to talk about it, especially about what happened to him. They'd rather ignore it and hope it doesn't strike them to do the same thing. I've bee trying to pick myself up, got a cat sort of as a contract with myself to go on living. But now, I'm adopting her out, even paying someone to take her, and I don't know what I'm going to do. I feel overwhelmed and I feel like I'm thinking through a fog.