- Aug 20, 2009
today is a typical day, woke at 3-30, drinking lots of coffee, smoking lots of cigs, very depressed and self harmed again ( 4th time this week ) i have been self harming for 40 years and don't think i will ever stop. mostly i tend to myself but sometimes i need to go to a+e. i have had counselling, support workers, regular visits to my psychiatrist and have a day care centre i can go to. NOTHING WORKS !!! at the moment i am trying isolation and haven't been out for 5 weeks, getting my food and cigs delivered. please if you read this and reply do not suggest religion. i have tried all faiths and find them all hypocritical and now am completely agnostic. i am no good socially and if anyone knows of somewhere i can go and be a recluse any suggestions would be gladly received. thanks for taking the time to read this, if you have similar feelings i have no good advice i'm sorry, just try to survive each day until the glorious day you die.