- Oct 25, 2009
For almost ten years now i have been living a nightmare in regards to the way i feel. There are two main areas that i know are contributing to it - 1. i have no idea who i am or what i am and second that i think that i may be bipolar however i do not know if the two are separate or one is the cause of the other. i was wondering if there was anyone in a similar position? 2 months ago i plucked up the courage to go to the GP and i have been referred to the mental health unit at the local hospital. appointment is on nov 5th and i have no idea what to expect and have no idea how much i will actually be able to say. things are getting worse lately, i keep jumping like twitches especially at night when my head just becomes to full - as odd as that may sound.. i also go through stages of being very very down and then days when i am on top of the world... my weight also seems to get effected and it fluctuates by about a stone in a matter of weeks - its really difficult i am hoping the doctors can help as i have nowhere else to turn now really. its so hard and i cant see a future for myself the way it is carrying on.. i want to shut myself away and keep wanting to quit work, i have to really push myself to go out at weekends which i only do about once every six weeks now - does anyone have any advice on this?