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Stripey
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Hi
I'm totally new to this and just thought i'd give it a try. I've had various "issues" over the small course of my life (i'm 27) and over the last year things have been tough. I feel like i'm on the road to recovery but it's hard.
My psychologist (I'm paying privately for it, best £60 an hour ever) and I have discussed the possibility of me being Bipolar. I'm reluctant to accept it (okay i refuse to accept it). But reading some of the stuff on here...
I get both highs and lows. When they first started (about a year ago) I had no idea what the hell was going on, I was terrified. Now while I still don't understand them, I am better at dealing with them and seeing the signs.
But i feel like they (the thoughts that come with the highs and lows) trick me. Cause sometimes i just don't see them coming. On Monday i was spending a nice day in London after a busy weekend of working. This was something i wanted to do. For no discernible reason, I became suicidal, emotional, completely down on myself, the list was endless.
I eventually 'came out of it' but have been left a bit like a 'rabbit in the headlights'. It takes so much strength to stay on the path to recovery, sometimes it just feels like i have no control over myself at all.
Anyway, just thought writing it down (somewhere else other than my diary) might be good.
All thoughts welcome.
Stripey
I'm totally new to this and just thought i'd give it a try. I've had various "issues" over the small course of my life (i'm 27) and over the last year things have been tough. I feel like i'm on the road to recovery but it's hard.
My psychologist (I'm paying privately for it, best £60 an hour ever) and I have discussed the possibility of me being Bipolar. I'm reluctant to accept it (okay i refuse to accept it). But reading some of the stuff on here...
I get both highs and lows. When they first started (about a year ago) I had no idea what the hell was going on, I was terrified. Now while I still don't understand them, I am better at dealing with them and seeing the signs.
But i feel like they (the thoughts that come with the highs and lows) trick me. Cause sometimes i just don't see them coming. On Monday i was spending a nice day in London after a busy weekend of working. This was something i wanted to do. For no discernible reason, I became suicidal, emotional, completely down on myself, the list was endless.
I eventually 'came out of it' but have been left a bit like a 'rabbit in the headlights'. It takes so much strength to stay on the path to recovery, sometimes it just feels like i have no control over myself at all.
Anyway, just thought writing it down (somewhere else other than my diary) might be good.
All thoughts welcome.
Stripey