- Jun 11, 2019
So i was diagnosed at 15 (im 40 now)- "Bipolar Manic Depressive" right? And ive been on and off meds since then. Zoloft at first, which as far as i remember worked well, then after i maxed out as far as dosage and i felt that it wasn't helping anymore, i was next put on paxil. 40 mgs of paxil a day with 1 mg of xanax in the morning and ( if i wanted to sleep without waking every 2 hours) id take another mg of xanax before bed. That combo i was on for around 6 years in a row and i felt like it helped alot. Then one day my doctor decided she was going to cut me off of the xanax because " that clinic was no longer going to be prescribing xanax to ANY patients" was her reasoning. Thats when i learned that i couldn't take the 40mgs of paxil alone- when i did it would throw me into a panic attack. So since i needed the xanax WITH the paxil, and i could no longer get the xanax- i stopped taking the paxil altogether. Its been about 2 years now- ive been self-medicating, as i call it, but thats a whole other post lol. ANYWAY- i was reading some info on bipolar online and i came across an article that said that bipolar episodes (like manic or depressive) last for MONTHS and that a bipolar person will only have like 3 different "moods" in a year....? Even the definition of "rapid cycling bipolar" was like 10 in a year. Ok so THATS NOT what happens to me AT ALL. I literally go through like 8 mood swings in one DAY when im not on my meds and im not self-medicating (100% sober). Its BAD. So my question is- am i even diagnosed right??