No I haven't got anyone to talk too. The people at work don't know about my illness, they do know about the break down I had a year ago because I had to have 11 weeks off work.
I attended the day unit and got an appointment to see a cpn but then I started feeling better, went back to work and cancelled the appointment. I think that is when the beginning of the high came and I felt good again.
unfortunately the high has followed a major low I started feeling really depressed at the end of Feb and have been seeing the doctor ever since.
She did put me on Citalopram but it did nothing for me. I'm now on Zoloft ( sertraline ). I'm just so anxious all the time, talking to people is a major fear I have.I have even started coming home at lunchtime because I can't face sitting in the staff room and talking to people.
I think its great you have a degree its brilliant. I was never very academic I wasted my time at school to busy fooling around with boys and bunking off. This is something I deeply regret. My mum always made me feel I was never good enough, she used to call me stupid all the time I guess I started to believe her.
I know what you mean about feeling like your wasting your life, I feel like that too alot lately. I keep thinking if I die tomorrow I will have spent years being depressed with so many regrets. I guess we have to try and think more positively
