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Binging in the evening

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Kellsey92

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So, it’s my first time doing anything like this but I’m starting to feel so frustrated...
I’ve binged and purged through periods of stress throughout a majority of my life (25), though recently this problem has been escalating. I’ve had some serious issues with health anxiety and paranoia etc. since April, though that appears to be subsiding slightly, my focus has redirected to controlling and restricting food.
I have now found myself in a terrible cycle of consuming little calories during the day and binging terribly at night, leading to purging several times an evening. I have now damaged my throat and feel completely exasperated.
How do I even start to manage this cycle, I’m scared of eating too much during the day and I’m really starting to worry about what may happen if this continues.
I’m still a healthy weight so I’m scared doctors wouldn’t even care about the thoughts I have right now.
 
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IWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH

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:welcome: to the forum. Sorry you damaged your throat. Will it get better? Maybe you should seek a psychiatrist and therapist for help. I binge eat too. :hug:
 
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wheezey

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Hello and welcome to the forum. I would recommend you going to your doctor and asking to be seen at an eating disorder clinic. I have binge eating disorder and had therapy at a clinic and it helped me. It is very difficult to break the destructive cycles on your own.

You restricting food is what is causing you to binge. One thing I have learned is to not allow myself to get too hungry or I will binge. I eat regularly and that helps me.
 
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Hi Kellsey92,

Sorry to hear how you're feeling. Sometimes, we aren't able to break the cycle ourselves, unless we are very disciplined and strong-willed. I think you need to see a GP and explain what is going on - they are trained to deal with mental health at a basic level, so they will refer you to a psychiatrist. You need support to break this cycle, and they are here to help. I'd recommend writing some notes down so that you can discuss what is going on - they will listen to you!x

Much love <3
 
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Kellsey92

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Thankyou for your responses, I managed not to binge last night. I’m booking to see the doctor Monday.
I have also given myself tonsillitis, so if there’s ever an advert for not engaging in such behaviour, it’s the pure agony I’m in right now... the things we do to ourselves :(
 
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wheezey

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Good luck seeing the doctor on Monday. How awful to have tonsillitis. I really hope it goes soon.
 
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Kellsey92

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Mental health problems also lead you to breaking up with your partner of 18 months, because he can’t ‘handle’ it.
Can my life actually get any worse, I feel so hopeless.
 
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wheezey

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Oh no what a horrible shock. Im so sorry this has happened to you. You are going through enough already.
 
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IWILLOBTAINMENTALHEALTH

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I just hope the damage is reversible. Sorry about your boy friend. Good job on seeing a doctor. :)
 
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I completely understand where you are at. I have been there. Evenings have always been the toughest for me. I think during the day I can keep myself busy and my mind off of food. At night though, I tend to use it to "relax" or reward myself. I can then get sucked in to the cycle of guilt and shame that follow the fear of the binge and lead then to the purge! Although I am mostly recovered it is still easy to get sucked in to this cycle if I don't have my guard up to what's going on! What I have learned is it doesn't matter if you are a healthy weight. Eating disorders are a mental health issue. It's thinking that is distorted that causes us to do harmful things to our body. Even though it is a physical illness, it's much more a mental one. This is not something you can get over on your own. It doesn't just go away. Most often it is being driven by something much deeper. Until we can admit there is a problem and seek help it's not going to go away. If you aren't already, I would highly recommend seeing a therapist/counselor. They can help you see what is driving you, what your triggers are when you fall in to the binge/purge cycle, and can teach you healthier ways to cope and manage your life! Recovery is not an easy journey, but it is worth it! Best of luck!
 
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