Binge eating

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June90

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Hi,

I have suffered from eating disorders since I can remember. I have never got any support for it.

When I was about 8 or 9, I started gaining weight and since then I have been obese. I used to eat a lot for a child and this was kind of encouraged by my mum. She used to feed me a lot more than my sister's. I always had the extra snack or the extra plate of food. By the time I was a teenager I was obese. I was bullied a lot because I was obese but I was also quite tall. I stuck out like a sore thumb. I had trouble controlling my eating habits through college and university. I tried a lot of Fad diets but none worked. I grew anxious with my weight gain, and never really left the house to socialise. Even when relatives would visit I'd lock myself in my room. I ate 24 hours round the clock. I never really slept either which didn't help. I was hungry all the time.

When I reached the age of 23 I was very overweight. I said enough was enough. That I was going to get on a diet and get fit. I got on a diet and within 7 months I lost a lot of weight. I lost a stone a month. I became obsessed with being skinny. I ate 1 meal a day, and I exercised 2 to 3 hours per day. But I never really tackled by eating disorder. I only made it worse. Of course I still had an insatiable appetite.

I didn't care though, I was skinny and people were praising my new look. I was happy until I got ill. I grew weak, I got dizzy spells, I fainted, my hair started to fall out. I knew why. Luckily this wasn't sustainable. I would go on holiday and let go for a week. When I'd return I couldn't pull myself back into the gym, I could Carey on this diet and within 6 months I would have gained back every pound I lost. I was obese again and now everyone would look at me like a failure. I failed at being healthy. I wasn't healthy when I was skinny, I was only causing my body further stress and illness. Now I am above 19 stones in weight, with back problems, and early osteoarthritis. I hate myself, I'm embarassed, I cry to myself, I feel pathetic. I just wanted to be accepted and to be fit and healthy. It didn't happen.
 
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I suffer with binge eating disorder and my weight is it if control which turns into a vicious cycle. Do you have particular comfort food mine is mainly takeaways because I hate cookings, washing dishes anything that requires effort which links back to my depression I guess
 
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Food is my only joy. I've put on a lot of weight in four years. I live my life around calories. I've been very overweight twice and lost it by accident! I didn't even notice the second time. I know how you feel.
 
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I want to learn to fix my eating habits, I want a permanent change. If someone can point me in the right direction I'd appreciate it. Thank you.
 
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I lost weight calorie counting and walking for hours every day.
 
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Try:
The Military Diet app: The military diet, also called the 3-day diet, is a weight loss diet that can help you lose up to 10 pounds in a week. The military diet plan involves a 3-day meal plan followed by 4 days off, and the weekly cycle is repeated again and again until you reach your goal weight. The diet itself only lasts for 3 days. After that, switch to a normal, healthy diet for at least 4 days. If you'd like to lose more weight, you can repeat the program as often as you'd like, as long as you take 4-day breaks every time after you do it.

Of course exercise!

Or eat 1 large healthy meal a day: Dinner
Or eat 2 medium healthy meals a day: Breakfast and Dinner
Or eat 3 small healthy meals a day: Breakfast, Lunch, and Dinner
Or eat 4 small healthy meals a day: Breakfast, Lunch, Dinner, and Snack
Or eat 5 small healthy meals a day: Breakfast, Snack, Lunch, Snack, Dinner
Or eat 6 small healthy meals a day: Breakfast, Snack, Lunch, Snack, Dinner, Snack

Short reads:

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Have you read this article on
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Have you read this article on
What Is the Importance of Discipline in Life?
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Weight Watchers and NutriSystem for Men is very, very expensive. The Military Diet is free and way, way cheaper.

Downloaded the The Military Diet app and enjoy!

GL GB BS!
 
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Hi @June90 I'm sorry you're struggling. I also binge eat it's a self-soothing coping mechanism for me.

I just wanted to tell you there is no shame in this and no one ever was successful in shaming themselves into being a better person.

Personally I never found dieting helpful because it doesn't address the issue only the outcome. Cognitive therapy and self love and acceptance work proved far more helpful and effective.

I suggest you read some works by writer Roxane Gay who has many good words to share about the matter of being you in a world that sees only your weight.
 
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Thank you for your advice. From the 3 therapy sessions i did have, i realised that there is a bigger problem underlying and i do need to solve that first. I need to really help myself. The day i wrote the post i just felt really sorry for myself. Im trying not to do that anymore. I am trying to love myself, probably the hardest challenge for me. Many people probably feel the same.
 
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I am trying to love myself, probably the hardest challenge for me. Many people probably feel the same.
We all do. If acceptance were a simple matter I'm not sure there would be a need for this community. I'm happy to know you're working on the underlying issues and hope you will share further - progress but also setbacks - both important parts of the process.

You matter. You deserve love. We all do.
 
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Very kind of you, its work in progress. There's loads that I don't share. In fact the therapist is the only person I have shared this with. I'm no longer seeing the therapist, I felt overwhelmed and pulled away. I know now I was wrong to do this, its a bad habit of mine.
 
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It's good to know people understand me, I know it isn't something that I am experiencing alone. All the advice is great. I'm taking small steps. I'm going to start with my self esteem. Thank you all.