River (by the way you have a great forum nickname).
That statement sounds kind of final, I may be misinterpreting you but please don't do anything rash, things can get better, PM me if you'd like to articulate your feelings, its late but I'll be around for a few hours if you get this.
im still struggling to terms with how words on a page can help you, seems to work though and I guess hanging around here on boring days is keeping my mind off other things. i agree though, seems to be a great community here, always somewhere to go when worse comes to worse. shame not more people on here dont feel they have a real life person to turn to in their times of need though. myself included.