Thank you all for your advice and information; it really is helpful.
To be honest, I have a problem with going through my doctor. I already have a vast medical file based on my alcoholism and depression and I don't want to add benzo addiction to that. I'm a teacher in my 50's and may have to be looking for a new job in the next couple of years (nothing to do with me, I have to say; just another possible pointless reorganisation). Most employers need an okay medical report - I'm diabetic as well! I know they're bad,bad,bad but benzos won't kill me, don't stop me doing my job well and they keep me off the drink, which will kill me if I start again.
I'm already on Mirtazapine, which reminds me, has anyone heard of or suffered from Dysthymia, a kind of low-level chronic depression? After much research I've decide that that's what I've got and when I see the doctore on Friday I'm going to ask for Sertraline to treat it. Does it exist or is it one of those conditions invented by drug companies to sell more pills?
Thanks again for all your suggestions and experiences. 2009 is my year for sorting myself out so all ideas are very gratefully received!