
Bluemoon
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I keep getting told this, not just from family but the people who are involved with my care - that I'm too sensitive and that I dwell on things too much. I was always like it through school even from being very young. My brother once said to me after I became unwell with my illness that I was always depressed - which isn't exactly true because I have always enjoyed a good laugh but also making others laugh. I was quite silly at times, maybe that was my way of cheering myself up I really don't know. But anyway it's really bugging me that I'm so sensitive to peoples' reactions, actions and even just the way they look at me sometimes. I know that's why I was bullied growing up because I was easily offended as well - still am to be honest but I do weigh things up better than I have ever done and can dismiss certain things easily even though they keep popping in to my mind on occasion some times afterwards. I keep asking myself why I keep thinking about this or that because I choose to put it aside and forget it or at least want to.
I will just give a summary here, but apart from the bullying I experienced, my family life was stressful growing up because my parents didn't get along yet stayed together ( on and off ) until I was 15. My brother was quite nasty to me most of the time as well. What made that harder was that my mum became mentally ill when I was 10 years old and I worried about her constantly. My dad never bothered with me and my brother very much, seemed to be in a bad mood with his job but also more interested in watching TV or doing his own thing most of the time. This took it's toll on me because there were days that I couldn't face going in to school or even concentrate on the work some days. You could say I took some emotional abuse and dealt with a lot of negative events in those years of my youth but luckily I was never physically abused. I wonder if all of this is what has caused the extra sensitivity - the negative environments I've been in and the negative feedback off some of my peers.
At 18 I was diagnosed with stress-induced psychosis and a year later that was amended to schizophrenia when I began to hear voices - most of which make negative comments on not only myself but when I do things. That is also anther major source of my sensitivity I think.
Anyone else here share anything like this ?
I will just give a summary here, but apart from the bullying I experienced, my family life was stressful growing up because my parents didn't get along yet stayed together ( on and off ) until I was 15. My brother was quite nasty to me most of the time as well. What made that harder was that my mum became mentally ill when I was 10 years old and I worried about her constantly. My dad never bothered with me and my brother very much, seemed to be in a bad mood with his job but also more interested in watching TV or doing his own thing most of the time. This took it's toll on me because there were days that I couldn't face going in to school or even concentrate on the work some days. You could say I took some emotional abuse and dealt with a lot of negative events in those years of my youth but luckily I was never physically abused. I wonder if all of this is what has caused the extra sensitivity - the negative environments I've been in and the negative feedback off some of my peers.
At 18 I was diagnosed with stress-induced psychosis and a year later that was amended to schizophrenia when I began to hear voices - most of which make negative comments on not only myself but when I do things. That is also anther major source of my sensitivity I think.
Anyone else here share anything like this ?