Will let me say first congratulations, great job on being eight months. So you been thinking about relapsing lately. We will always have those sort of thoughts but please let them remain as they are, just thought. I completely understand the stress, anxiety and depression but we need to come up with better coping skills. Are you working the 12 steps? Bottom line, please don't let that eight months of sobriety go down the drain.
A strong dose of water soluble multi-vitamins should be taken when symptoms of relapse appear.
Also, keep in mind that your methadose doctor can prescribe you oxycodone or injectable hydromorphone for a condition called OUD (opioid use disorder). So if you know you will relapse you need to let your doctor know about your imminent intent to use so he can prescribe you pharmaceutical grade opioids of known doses. This is a harm reduction strategy known to considerably decrease overdose risk.
ghost_girl80, I don't know how you get rid of persistent feelings, but smashing stuff works for frustration for me (Not people/animals obviously). I feel similarly frustrated... Not sure if this helps but I'm (legally) high but still feel frustrated... -getting high would at most give you temporary restbite?