- Sep 19, 2018
I'm 40 childless and still single. Feel like my life has passed me by. It's not that I never wanted to be a wife and a mother, I just never got to fully put it out in front. Never got to dream about it. Wish about it. None of that like most women do because they truly want it. I feel like time is running out for me to even have both, a mother mainly. It's the biggest missing piece to my puzzle. I'm not even in good place to be a mother and it scares me that I never will. I have too much of a full plate dealing past trauma and starting over in life at a late age. Then having to hear shit about older women having babies late. Lots are and have done it but you still hear shit about it not being good. People can be incredibly f*cking rude about it, especially other women. I don't know if my body can carry a child of my own. It hurts to think about it. I try not too but it happens and I cry or feel like crying when I see a baby and see or hear about some having a baby. I'm still hoping for my turn to come.