Bad thoughts creeping in

[Stallone91]

Today's been hard. Nothing triggered it really. Depression has been slowly taking over especially in the past few weeks with periodic SI today is one of those days. I went out with a friend today - didn't help, took a shower which helped a little but still feel so down and lifeless but like a robot that has to keep going with life because it doesn't stop, I wish I could pause and take a breath and enjoy life for once. Maybe travel? Depression keeps coming back. I feel like people are trying to sabatoge me though I didn't do anything. I try to be nice and a good person but in the end it doesn't work? Thoughts of death keep creeping in. I had a few people I knew in school complete suicide, I wonder if they found peace? Any way I'm rambling... I want help and to he happy but idk where to go for it. In the US health care care is for the rich.

PS - don't worry, no plans, just need to get my thoughts out there. They are taking up too much space in my head

 

[ziedite]

Totally get it... not really sure about the best advice to give, other then I truly understand. Keep posting and let us know what you need... that is best way to get help from the forum.

 

[wollie]

Hi Stallone
Can you afford to take a holiday or just get away from it all for a time, I know how you feel I have been depressive for 11 years, are there no charity hospitals that will take you on?
Are you working or unemployed? may be a change of job will help some thing that will get you out and about.
Just some thoughts, I hope you feel better soon
All the best woolie.