- Jul 28, 2010
- Out of Context
Not even quite sure where to start with this. Last time I saw my psychiatrist was before Christmas, and I was doing really well then. Fast forward to now, still recovering from not having seen my therapist for over a month and that triggering my attachment and fear of abandonment issues. I decided to be honest with my psychiatrist and tell him how that affected me, and he asked me how, since I was aware of those issues, how I could have let them get the better of me, and went into CBT mode, and I started crying. He was not comfortable at all with me crying and I don't really remember exactly how things went. I tried to explain to him that when I feel something deeply I can tell myself what's true until I'm blue in the face but it still doesn't change how I feel, and he basically told me that wasn't true. He told me that I am an adult, and I don't have to be overwhelmed by my feelings the way a 5 year old would be. I felt so belittled. He asked me why I wanted to see a psychiatrist and I told him about needing someone to prescribe meds, someone who was open to neurotherapy and me gradually coming off my meds. And then he explained that he usually likes to do therapy with his patients as well as prescribing meds, but said that for right now, if I want, he'll just schedule 5 minute appointments for prescribing meds and that's it. I walked out of there feeling totally stunned.