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Bad ocd



New member
Mar 26, 2015
Hello Everyone, for the past 3 years I have been suffering from really bad ocd. It seems to be really bad false memories. I keep getting thoughts that I texted and emailed my friends saying that I murdered someone. I know for a fact that I did not say that but I keep getting false memories saying that I did and they just keep getting worse. The worst part is that I don't even have the phone I had at that time becuase it broke and my emails have been recently cleared out so I can not check them either. I also do not want to check because I am afraid of the thoughts being correct ( I know they are not correct) but it still really hurts. I also fear that somehow a picture or video will appear on my computer with the text or email saying that I did murder someone. I don't know what to do I feel completely hopeless sometimes. I have not been diagnosed with ocd but I have never actually seen a doctor or anything and I have not told anyone about my ocd becuase I feel like I won't be understood. I am sorry for the long post but I just feel completely helpless. Thank you for taking the time to read this and have a great day everyone!!


Well-known member
Aug 17, 2012
The West Country
Welcome to the forum.
I'm really sorry you haven't had a response yet. The OCD sub-forum doesn't tend to be as active as other areas of the forum.
Reading your posts, I am wondering why you haven't seen a doctor at all? I think that taking that first step and seeing a doctor is one of the hardest, but it could really help.