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When I was last very ill (around 3 years ago) - Going through a psychotic/Schizophrenic break or whatever is the best way of describing it; at one point I had a very frightening experience. I "saw" an image; which was so strong & tangible that it was as if it was in front of me. It was as if it was real & carried allot of feeling with it. It took over the energy of the room & the word to best describe it would almost be a "vision"; it lasted days - of "seeing" the same thing. What I experienced was this - there was a very deep Ocean & sinking into the Depths was a very old & rusted wreck of a large ship or liner. Everything in my life; & some people from my life as well, were chained & manacled to the sinking wreck; cars I had owned, possessions, people I knew - were all chained & cemented together; sinking, I was chained to it all as well by my ankle; & it was like the whole image was frozen in one horrific moment. I was very frightened by this experience at the time, & accompanying it was a horrible, bad, hopeless feeling.
I have had some stress & worries recently; but nothing too major. I am not psychosed or in the middle of a psychotic break. But I have been having moments of the same feeling which I had then, for no apparent or explicable reason. Not all the time - it comes & then goes, the odd few moments here & there.
I have my own reasons for what the "vision" meant; & an understanding of this experience which I have incorporated into a positive way of looking at it. I will expand on that if anyone is interested.
I just wanted to share this here. Has anyone had any similar experience? Does anyone else have these bad feelings for no explicable reason? I know to say bad sound ambiguous - it is hard to describe - almost like a dead feeling or like being stuck in / made of mud.
Sorry if sharing this is negative, but I wanted to get some feedback. On the whole things are OK & often good; I am having good feelings too & whatever I am feeling at any given time does pass, often quite quickly. Thanks.
I have had some stress & worries recently; but nothing too major. I am not psychosed or in the middle of a psychotic break. But I have been having moments of the same feeling which I had then, for no apparent or explicable reason. Not all the time - it comes & then goes, the odd few moments here & there.
I have my own reasons for what the "vision" meant; & an understanding of this experience which I have incorporated into a positive way of looking at it. I will expand on that if anyone is interested.
I just wanted to share this here. Has anyone had any similar experience? Does anyone else have these bad feelings for no explicable reason? I know to say bad sound ambiguous - it is hard to describe - almost like a dead feeling or like being stuck in / made of mud.
Sorry if sharing this is negative, but I wanted to get some feedback. On the whole things are OK & often good; I am having good feelings too & whatever I am feeling at any given time does pass, often quite quickly. Thanks.